4/16/09

I do believe it's about time I went back on the happy pills. It seems all of my energy is coming out in tears. Jim and Cindy are out of town, and the couple they asked to take Lukas to the Kingdom Hall for tonight's meeting didn't know about his seizures. When I called them to ask if they knew, and told them if they didn't want to take him, it was OK. They declined, and to be honest, I don't blame them one bit. Even after 22 years of it, the seizures still scare me. And the neurologist's office called today, and he wants to get another blood level on Lukas. When I explained that they had to puncture him 4 times last time to get any blood, she said she'd talk to the doctor.

Just a struggle to do anything today. My big accomplishment, washed some rugs and finished putting a gate on the horse stand for Amber. She's broken 2 halters while trying to trim her hooves, and this is a last resort. And now, being I can't find any inspiration to do beads, I'm scanning negatives to put on my website.

4/13/09

I have GOT to start writing down what colors I use when I experiment with glass. I've got a strand that I really like, but can't remember which glass I used!

Here's a couple using Double Helix glass. I really like the way the silvered ivory webbing underneath shows through.


And here's one using Raku,

A very nice day today. Made some beads, took a nap, planted potatoes and pulled some quack grass. It's almost barefoot time, my favorite time of the year!

4/12/09

Just a lazy day today. Last night was a long night, between Chester, Lukas' dog, throwing up, and Pip throwing up, and Tynha whining to go out at 6 a.m., and not being able to get to sleep, tossing and turning, thinking too much and crying too much. Just too much to contend with lately, with Mom dying, Lukas' seizures, troubles at home, and then Les dying. Just too much.

I've know Les for 22 years. I didn't really get to know him the first 10-12 years, but then he decided to write his life story, and he did it in longhand. He paid me to type it up and scan photos for the book, and that's when I really started to get to know him. He had a bawdy sense of humor, and always was in a good mood. Only once did I see him get mad, and that was when he had to inject himself with insulin (he was diabetic), and it went in wrong. He swore! First and last time I heard that! He always had a joke to tell (occasionally a bit dirty), and was a great humanitarian. We had so many discussions about religion. I really missed seeing him every week when I retired. And then a couple of months ago he got cancer. I truly hope that after the resurrection, I'll be there to say "I told you so" to him, because he couldn't bring himself to believe in it.

One of the things that was repeated often at his memorial was his attitude of 'life is good.' I'm trying to adopt that attitude, as you can tell, with a bit of difficulty. But I'm trying. So my resolution is to be more positive and happy, and push this negativity aside. We'll see. There!! You see that negativity!!?!

Let's start over. It's been a good day today. Right now it's 56°, and I see more tulips coming up. I worked on the greenhouse today and put up some new plastic. I replanted tomatoes and peppers into bigger pots, and started some nicotiana seeds today. If you want an impressive, heavenly scented flower, plant ONLY THE LONELY NICOTIANA, https://www.superseeds.com/products.php?cat=160. It's 4-5' tall, with long 3-4" white tubular flowers that have the most beautiful scent.

My neighbor called and told me that another neighbor at the other end of the cul-de-sac called the DNR because they had a huge black bear in their garbage. That's lovely! At least the calves are big enough to run if it comes over here. That's the chances you take when you live next to a wildlife refuge, same as fox taking chickens, and coyotes taking cats. You just hope for the best and try to take what precautions you can, although there's not many you can take against a bear.

I annealed a load of beads and have a couple that I like.