Friday, February 05, 2010

Have you ever watched a dog go to sleep? They lay down and 5 minutes later, they’re dead to the world.

I go to bed and my mind races from one thing to another, things I should have said or done, things I need to do tomorrow, or should do... with a dog on each side of me in the bed, snoring blissfully.

I miss David. As bad as things have gotten over the past few years, I always knew that if something happened, he would be there for support. All marriages have ups and downs. Anyone going into one thinking it’s going to be ‘happily ever after’ is extremely naive. No matter how much you love each other, life intrudes and throws obstacles in your way. But there is a bond, you’re a pair supporting each other. That support is gone now. I have my boys, family, friends, and most of all, I have my God for support. But it’s not the same. There’s a hole in my life, one that I haven’t had for 30 years.


michelle said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this, Betsy. I can't even imagine the grief from missing a life partner. my heart goes out to you.

Elizabeth (Lizabeads) said...

It was the alcohol talking Betsy, not the David you loved. We love you and miss you. I hope you are doing ok. My mom is going through the same things only she has no one living with her. she say's it's so hard to be alone. My dad wasn't an alcoholic but years ago he was grumpy and could say mean things. I think he was a lot more mellow in the last few years. But it is just so hard. **HUGS** Elizabeth
I wish it was me..........

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